:: separation ::

it's only been 4 months... and there's still 5 to go... i know you said it will fly by... indeed it does seem so but it doesn't stop the onset of sadness... it doesn't make it any better given that we hardly talk at all in december. with u in ny/boston, we had a total of 10 mins conversation so far in the last 10 days. separation- some says it's harder for those whose relationship has just started before they are separated. i guess for me it's not about how long we've been together. being together for a long time doesn't mean i'll miss you less... in fact... coz you've been there by my side for so long... i miss you even more. sorry to those who are reading this may seem really sappy but i guess i'm in an emotional season... i do miss the boy very much. it just occurred to me it doesn't make sense to address the boy in 1st person coz he rarely reads my blog so he shall henceforth be officially 'the boy.'

I thank God for coming across this prayer in a lovely book given by Ying, Yve & Peiyong. i guess that's all i've been trying to be - 'not sad' with many going don't be sad time will pass by quickly. I am sad. i want to embrace the sadness and move on. And this prayer it shall be, for me and for friends who are also separated from their loved ones. May the ache in our hearts be the strengthening of our hearts. May the longing bring resolve, conviction and purity to our love.

Till i see you again, your heart i carry with me.

(I promise a happy post up next. plenty of thanksgiving. Love you Lord!)